Tracy J.
There is a story; a story of a very large family with six children and two parents. Two of the children have extras. One is an extremely independent, amazingly courageous warrior of a boy who is a huge athlete and never backs down from a challenge. The other is a sweet, adorable little princess that is completely dependent on her family. Our son, Kumaka is 8. He was born with Spina Bifida, hydrocephalus, bilateral club feet and is crazy independent but he didn't start out that way. He has had multiple surgeries, multiple illnesses, and was in and out of the hospital for four years. He had a really scary surgery at four, a bilateral hip surgery. It lasted 12 hours and he needed a blood transfusion. He woke up with a spica cast from his waist to his toes and was in it for 2 1/2 months. During that time, our community came together to play with him, read to him, and bring us food. And during that very difficult time we realized that there are other children out there in the world that are alone and don't have the support and care that our son has and that we could provide that care to another child.
While our son was still healing from this surgery, we started the adoption process for our daughter, Sofi. She has been with us for almost two years now. Sofi is extremely dependent for everything. She has a g-tube, and is completely fed and given liquids that way. She is in a wheelchair and is not crawling, walking or talking. She is six years old, but has the brain size of a 6 month old. She has CP and global delays, but her smile lights up our world. She knows when her brothers come in the room, and she laughs and lifts up her arms. She loves surfing and the beach. She is extremely happy at school. And she loves batting at toys. Prior to coming home, she lived in Bulgaria and was in a crib for three years of her life. She was never held, never given a toy or mobile or anything to fire up her mind.
As we watch our son grown, learn, and charge through life with complete abandon, he is learning to care for himself. We care for our daughter Sofi completely. She is our angel, she is our miracle. Our family has changed since she has been in our home. Caring for this little girl that can't do anything is such a sweet service. As we have imagined her life prior to coming to our family, our hearts hurt. As we continue to grow with her, we are so blessed by her smile, by her sweet spirit, and by her love. As one of the children we care for becomes more independent and we rejoice in that, we celebrate having our sweet Sofi and the miracle she is.
Story 11: Stephanie C., Caregiver for her son
For 26 years I have been a caregiver. I have learned that caregiving is an ever evolving life lesson. Is caregiving a rewarding experience? Absolutely. For others to understand the rewards of caregiving, you would actually have to travel the journey with us. The worries, struggles and heartbreaking moments would seem to overshadow the joys of simple accomplishments or the heartfelt hugs, kisses and laughter that come with caregiving. Let me tell you, they do not.
I never planned on being a lifelong caregiver, I don’t think anyone does. But in 1991, our son Jared, was diagnosed with a rare genetic disorder called Angelman Syndrome. That is when our journey in the world of special needs began, and that is when I realized that Jared would need lifelong care. For many years I was a stay at home mom in order to meet our son’s needs, only going back to part time work when Jared was medically stable. My husband took on extra work to support us. My caregiving involves being a mother, a nurse, a doctor, a therapist, a teacher, and an advocate. Really, any mother does all of these things. But being a mother of a child with special needs means all of that is so much more intensified and sometimes you have to be all of these at one time. To meet Jared’s medical needs, I sometimes called other Angelman parents in other states to gather information that might be helpful. The reward was their support and knowing we were not alone.
Caring for everything from Jared’s seizures, to his breathing, to his metabolism, to his irregular sleep patterns, to all of his daily care can still be physically, mentally and emotionally exhausting. I had to learn to build and navigate a team of outsiders who came into our lives because of Jared’s needs, often teaching our team of doctors, therapists, case managers, respite providers and teachers about Jared’s care and diagnosis. Building trusting relationships with outsiders is not easy, but it is crucial. I once sat down to write down the names of those who had touched our lives because of our son. I filled up a page of paper and knew there were so many more that I could not remember. It is so rewarding to have a team of people who treat Jared with dignity who see him as the beautiful person he is and not a diagnosis.
Over time, I learned that caregiving also means caring for yourself. Taking a break sometimes means that I can be a better caregiver. Understanding that has been a long time in coming, but so rewarding!
I learned this from mothers who are further down their journey and to this day I still seek out their guidance, just as other mothers now seek out mine. In my work I serve parents in an early intervention program helping other mothers as they become caregivers; preparing them for the work, heartache, and abundant blessings that they will encounter on their journeys. When a mother tells me that she knows she can do it because I have done it…there are no words to describe how rewarding that is.
Very simply, the blessings come with the feeling of accomplishment no matter how small, a heartfelt kiss from my son; hearing his laughter and the absolute joy he brings to our family. Even covering him up in the middle of the night or kissing his hands as he sleeps is rewarding beyond measure. Caregiving always keeps your feet on the ground, understanding what is important and what is not. Our family possesses a strength that others know nothing about, and the compassion instilled in my other sons is unparalleled. My younger son once told me, “Jared has taught me more than anyone else and he has done it all without saying a word.” And yes, having Jared healthy and happy and is the greatest reward.
Any caregiver can express what it involves, what to expect, and how to keep yourself going. But the rewards? Those are for those who embrace caregiving with all of its challenges and all of its blessings.